It's for me, & it's worth it. ♥

H:167cm // SW:65.5kg // CW:55.4kg // HW:65.5kg // LW:46.7kg // GW:55.0kg // UGW:45.0kg

This is for me to stay motivated in being healthy(-ish) & feeling better about myself. If other people want to follow & be helped by it as well, that is awesome, but it's not why I'm doing this.

I have had various types of eating disorders in the past & I still struggle with it, although I am currently trying to lose weight the healthy way. Hopefully I will one day be rid of my eating disorders completely, but I don't expect this to happen & I'm okay with that. All I can do is not let it get it the way of the rest of my life, because it really is such a tiny piece of all that I am.

I do not encourage people to develop eating disorders. I have had about every kind there is & it sucks. I do support people who have them, whether they are trying to recover or not. I believe it's not anyone else's business to tell people what they are allowed to do with their own body. And I am certainly not one to judge.

"If they understand, no explanation is needed. If they don't, they never will."
~ Tuesday, April 30 ~
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“ A minute on the lips, a lifetime to enjoy family, loved ones, reading, painting, traveling, writing, watching sunsets and living life.
— Felice Fawn (she is currently trying to recover from ED)
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~ Monday, April 22 ~
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~ Saturday, April 13 ~
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Word of advice.

When your teenage daughter with a history of various EDs who is finally able to eat somewhat normally wants to have lunch at 11 instead of 12 because she’s fucking starving, telling her to “keep in mind how many calories you’re gonna burn today” because “you’ll only sit in your room all day” is maybe not such a fucking good idea.

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“ Why am I getting so intensely hungry right now, I just had breakfast? Oh wait… I had breakfast at 8, it’s almost 11. I spent 2 hours getting ready. Right.
— Me, every single god damn morning.
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~ Wednesday, April 10 ~
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I am so tempted to make a lesbian joke but I will retain myself.

I am so tempted to make a lesbian joke but I will retain myself.

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~ Tuesday, March 26 ~
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So I’m in this diet competition thing to win a wifi scale…

Yeah I know. But whatever. Those scales are expensive & I want one. Anyways. In order to win you had to write a motivator for why you should win (did that) & then you have to meet your personal calorie goal every day for this week. This is day 2. Regardless of winning or not, what I am going to take away from this experience is that I will never be able to be on a diet. Most people probably think that sounds weird since I’m a vegan & I try to eat healthy & all that, but I do those things because they make me feel good. Because I want to. Being on a diet does not make me feel good. I’ve been using this calorie counter app for several months & I love it & it totally does help, but I don’t really adjust my eating after it. I use it to keep track & help make me more aware of the faults in my eating pattern. But if I go a bit over/under my calorie limit (wich is adjusted to each user depending on their weight etc) it’s not a big deal. Now I am trying really hard to always meet the limit & I’m already thinking about what a relief it will be when the week is over. Sigh. Dieting is definitly not for me. And yes of course I’ve thought about the fact that cheating would be super easy since how the fuck would anyone know if I don’t catalogue everything I eat or type in something extra, BUT I am not going to let myself cheat. If I were to cheat, I wouldn’t deserve to win & I wouldn’t be able to enjoy it. I mean I’m probably not gonna win anyways, but who knows. I only saw like 70-80 people who wrote motivators & the competition already started, so the odds aren’t totally unlikely….! Right? The real challenge is gonna be keeping my limit on my birthday wich is coming this week. Ugh.
Anyways. My point is. There is a difference between trying to eat healthy & dieting. Eating healthy is awesome & makes you feel great, dieting sucks ass & makes you want to cry.

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It's for me, & it's worth it. ♥: "Food does not control me."

notyourdecision:

Do you also think it’s really weird when people say that?

If you spend more than at least 50% of your day thinking about food & eating & how you “must not eat”… Food does control you. Obviously.

Food will probably always control me, whether I’m starving myself or feeling guilty because I ate too…

I remember making this post… God, that feels like such a long time ago. It’s been roughly a year.

To anyone who’s currently feeling this way & is starting to give up on the idea of recovery (or never had the idea to begin with) & is trying to decide whether it’s worth it or not to keep trying:
It is worth it. Things will get easier. It takes time though. Giving up now will only make the process longer. If you give up & go back to starving, you will never get to experience the relief of recovery. Relapsing is normal. Fucking up is normal. Feeling like shit is normal. But keep trying, because recovery feels fucking great once you’re past the earlier stages.

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~ Friday, March 15 ~
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mettamuscle: girlgotmuscle: Body Appreciation Post Sometimes I forget how hard my body works for me. Dabbling into dangerous disordered eating habits doesn’t only harm your body, it harms your mind. The days of sincerely trying to starve myself are past, but the impact they’ve made on my mind has lasted.  I’ve made peace with having bad eating days. They happen. I rarely binge like I used to, and I never starve myself either. But sometimes I still find myself in the mindset of, “Oh my god, I just undid all my hard work!” I fear looking in the mirror after a weekend like last. Although I’m not necessarily consumed by guilt about all the cake, I still have the feeling in the back of my mind that it’s going to magically show up on my love handles overnight.  BUT THIS ISN’T TRUE.  I looked in the mirror this morning, and voila! I’m not suddenly fatter, and my muscles didn’t magically shrink away just because I overindulged. Bodies are designed to compensate for variations in diet- the occasional accidental fast, an incident of overeating.  So I’d just like to say, thanks, Body, for being awesome and allowing me to run two miles of sprints this morning, and I’m sorry for hating on you because you’re not perfectly lean, and I’m sorry for feeding you so much junk food this weekend.  ^^^^^^^^^^ Ugh this is so perfect, exactly what I needed right now after my last meal. Occasional unhealthy eating does happen to everyone now & then, but we all need to remember that it’s still much healthier than never eating at all. We can do this, guys.

mettamuscle:

girlgotmuscle:

Body Appreciation Post


Sometimes I forget how hard my body works for me.

Dabbling into dangerous disordered eating habits doesn’t only harm your body, it harms your mind. The days of sincerely trying to starve myself are past, but the impact they’ve made on my mind has lasted. 

I’ve made peace with having bad eating days. They happen. I rarely binge like I used to, and I never starve myself either. But sometimes I still find myself in the mindset of, “Oh my god, I just undid all my hard work!”

I fear looking in the mirror after a weekend like last. Although I’m not necessarily consumed by guilt about all the cake, I still have the feeling in the back of my mind that it’s going to magically show up on my love handles overnight. 

BUT THIS ISN’T TRUE. 

I looked in the mirror this morning, and voila! I’m not suddenly fatter, and my muscles didn’t magically shrink away just because I overindulged. Bodies are designed to compensate for variations in diet- the occasional accidental fast, an incident of overeating. 

So I’d just like to say, thanks, Body, for being awesome and allowing me to run two miles of sprints this morning, and I’m sorry for hating on you because you’re not perfectly lean, and I’m sorry for feeding you so much junk food this weekend. 

^^^^^^^^^^

Ugh this is so perfect, exactly what I needed right now after my last meal. Occasional unhealthy eating does happen to everyone now & then, but we all need to remember that it’s still much healthier than never eating at all. We can do this, guys.

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~ Wednesday, March 13 ~
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~ Thursday, February 7 ~
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“ Veganism is not so much welfare as liberation, for the creatures and for the mind and heart of man; not so much an effort to make the present relationship bearable, as an uncompromising recognition that because it is in the main one of master and slave, it has to be abolished before something better and finer can be built.
— (not my quote)
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