When your teenage daughter with a history of various EDs who is finally able to eat somewhat normally wants to have lunch at 11 instead of 12 because she’s fucking starving, telling her to “keep in mind how many calories you’re gonna burn today” because “you’ll only sit in your room all day” is maybe not such a fucking good idea.
Yeah I know. But whatever. Those scales are expensive & I want one. Anyways. In order to win you had to write a motivator for why you should win (did that) & then you have to meet your personal calorie goal every day for this week. This is day 2. Regardless of winning or not, what I am going to take away from this experience is that I will never be able to be on a diet. Most people probably think that sounds weird since I’m a vegan & I try to eat healthy & all that, but I do those things because they make me feel good. Because I want to. Being on a diet does not make me feel good. I’ve been using this calorie counter app for several months & I love it & it totally does help, but I don’t really adjust my eating after it. I use it to keep track & help make me more aware of the faults in my eating pattern. But if I go a bit over/under my calorie limit (wich is adjusted to each user depending on their weight etc) it’s not a big deal. Now I am trying really hard to always meet the limit & I’m already thinking about what a relief it will be when the week is over. Sigh. Dieting is definitly not for me. And yes of course I’ve thought about the fact that cheating would be super easy since how the fuck would anyone know if I don’t catalogue everything I eat or type in something extra, BUT I am not going to let myself cheat. If I were to cheat, I wouldn’t deserve to win & I wouldn’t be able to enjoy it. I mean I’m probably not gonna win anyways, but who knows. I only saw like 70-80 people who wrote motivators & the competition already started, so the odds aren’t totally unlikely….! Right? The real challenge is gonna be keeping my limit on my birthday wich is coming this week. Ugh.
Anyways. My point is. There is a difference between trying to eat healthy & dieting. Eating healthy is awesome & makes you feel great, dieting sucks ass & makes you want to cry.