H:167cm // SW:65.5kg // CW:???kg // HW:65.5kg // LW:46.7kg // GW:55.0kg // UGW:45.0kg
This is for me to stay motivated in being healthy(-ish) & feeling better about myself. If other people want to follow & be helped by it as well, that is awesome, but it's not why I'm doing this.
I have had various types of eating disorders in the past & I still struggle with it, although I am currently trying to lose weight the healthy way. Hopefully I will one day be rid of my eating disorders completely, but I don't expect this to happen & I'm okay with that. All I can do is not let it get it the way of the rest of my life, because it really is such a tiny piece of all that I am.
I do not encourage people to develop eating disorders. I have had about every kind there is & it sucks. I do support people who have them, whether they are trying to recover or not. I believe it's not anyone else's business to tell people what they are allowed to do with their own body. And I am certainly not one to judge.
"If they understand, no explanation is needed. If they don't, they never will."
~ Tuesday, March 11 ~
I thought the earth remembered me,
want to be
she took me back so tenderly,
arranging her dark skirts, her pockets
full of lichens and seeds.
I slept as never before, a stone on the river bed,
nothing between me and the white fire of the stars
but my thoughts, and they floated light as moths
among the branches of the perfect trees.
All night I heard the small kingdoms
breathing around me, the insects,
and the birds who do their work in the darkness.
All night I rose and fell, as if in water,
grappling with a luminous doom. By morning
I had vanished at least a dozen times
into something better.
~ Monday, March 10 ~